0 Free day

I was thinking a lot lately... Well not about something that I have to do in school... Well I have to think and do something in that part too :))) And lately, all I think was to have a job. At first I think it is not as possible as I think it will be until I've emailed some companies, spamming my identity to the corporate world :))), I've just had my first interview today. And I'm not so proud of that interview!

At least I have to think on of something because invitation for interviews and exams are swarming like bees in the honey pot, of course I'm exaggerating! But partly true. And it's the first time that I've been out in my house for a long time that it shocked me how little I know about those corporate places, btw, I almost got lost finding that commerce building, and it's really really hot, that I wish I was somewhere cold, cold enough that I wish I was here.

I don't want to share any of that interview part, But I was glad that it goes well. And I took their exam, and passed it. Whew... The next obstacle will be "going home". And I wish I had a GPS tracker or something that will be assuring me that I can go home safely :))) I was lucky that some people lurking their are not totally aliens and that I can speak their language and gone home safely.

But still, I wish that the next company will be near my house..... I'd like some adventure for those far unknown places to me but I don't want stress eating me up for the next months or so,...

0 live by 101

When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.


Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

0 Sidewalks - Story of the year

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The bridges are crumpled,
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road. (At the end the town)
The town that we lived in.
The memories shakin apart from the weeds that grow.

Over the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or

Out on the front porch,
watching the cars as they go by,
Eighteen blue, twenty one grey,
Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive,
Out on our own,
To speed away

From the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or

All of days that past us by,
All of the sun is gone...
Away

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
(Sidewalks)
The bridges are crumpled,
(Sidewalks)
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road.

0 Sweet Escape

Well it end up that I've let myself revolve in some kind of metanoia but then again, it has just become just a sort of I don't know, maybe I made the same mistake again. It's like yesterday was okay, and then suddenly, like you don't know where you're at. It's like the black hole started to do this vacuum thing, well it's not suppose to be that way, I more of like treat that black hole as something that make me do good and nothing else. And then now it seems that it had taken more of like all the good things in me.

I don't know if I'm weighing things the right way, or is it there any?

Maybe it'll be the last good thing I'll do. I'd like to stop. I'll stop making believe that I'm still revolving into something that I've created, and get stuck. I'll wait for some time, then I'll decide maybe If I want to do these things, I've lost some connection to the most important muscle in my body, I've lost my inspiration. 

I want my life back. 

I don't want any option.

I'd like to stop this overflowing sadness that grows with hatred and then blended with some kind of masochistic happiness, I annoyed myself enough. And I intentionally stopped what I as doing and tried to get myself into pieces I was. But then, I lost everything I thought I'd never, ever have to worry about. Is this part of another 101? I hate to think it will, but I'm wishing that it'll never be.

Take this confusion away.

0 live by 101

-Well that's a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly; And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.


-After all, being young inevitably means making mistakes.


Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

0 Mixed Feelings

0 Summer Kiss

Everytime I want to give up,
there's always something
inside telling me to just
give it time.

0 Everyday, Okay!

What's your kind of refreshment? 

0 If you gotta read something, don't.

I miss you.
I love you.
You are my perfect crime.
I gotta say that.
Excuse me.

0 You're tubed

What makes you think the most is how, and not why or who. <- This line makes me feel like I don't know, why'd I'd always start at that line, it doesn't make sense. I keep watching those videos on youtube. And those people have pretty creative ideas when they show their faces or do something for the sake of their videos. I'm impressed. I'm not gonna say that I am if I don't have to be judging them comparing them to good or rather best people in the showbiz industry. Well, I'd have to say I'd like it to have a touch of being unique and not much of an effort to do well, well effort is all they got If I may say.

Here's a video that I'm talking about...



Well if you're really that interested to see his other videos, you can search his channel here.
And there's so many people like him in the tube. You just have to see and explore sometime. And no, I'm not planning to do any videos or likeness of those for anyone's sake :))) But I enjoy watching them, they kill almost all of my time. Ciao! gotta sleep.

0 Fireflies

You start with a trash. You are looking for an inspiration. You hear the music, those voices. You played the music. You feel it, you felt it, you keep feeling it. You bang your head in the middle of the song writing and at the same time thinking. You wanted to sing but you've realized that it will interrupt the song, the voice that made you bang your head. And you keep banging, you can't stop... you like what you're hearing, you love what you're hearing, and you keep thinking of what to write. The song is about to finish, switch the tab, then played it again.

You played the same song again. It feels the same. It undermines the silence, the lest dead place that you were in. It's 2:51am and you're wide awake. You keep typing. You keep thinking. You still wanted something. You don't want something that you don't need. You need something that you want. You want to touch someone. You want to be touched. It's what you hear, because it's what you wanted to hear. And the song is playing till the end, you switched the tab and thinking if you want to play that same song or maybe you could just hear something new, for a while.

But you played the same song, again, for the third time. And you still find it amusing. You are still typing. You don't want any distractions. You turned up the volume. It feels good like it felt for the first time. And it is because you wanted to hear the song, and because it tells you what you want to hear. You felt like you can go on for another 10 time loop for this song and not feeling fed up. Like you are talking with it, but you are not. Definitely, not. The song ended few seconds ago.

You switched the tab and tried to look for an old song you know, for a change. Then you found fireflies, and that changes the mood. Time for a new post. It's 3am, Saturday.

0 I tried

to disappear.

0 The Geek “Must Do Before You Die” Checklist

   1.   Add a Third Monitor
    2.   Build a Linux Firewall
    3.   Build a Network File Server
    4.   Build a PC
    5.   Build a Robot
    6.   Build an HTML based Website using Notepad
    7.   Bypass a Computer Password on All Major Operating Systems
    8.   Bypass School or Work Website Blocks
    9.   Carry a Computer Cleaning Arsenal on Your USB Drive
    10.   Compile a Linux Kernel
    11.   Control Your House Lights with a Computer
    12.   Convert Cassette Tapes to Digital Audio Files
    13.   Crack a Wi-Fi Password
    14.   Create “Hello, World” in at Least Five Different Programming languages
    15.   Create a Disposable E-Mail Account
    16.   Create a Recovery Drive Image of Your Computer
    17.   Create a WordPress Plugin
    18.   Create a WordPress Theme from Scratch
    19.   Create an Add-On for Firefox
    20.   Create an SSH Tunnel
    21.   Create Music with Keyboard
    22.   Design and Build a Circuit Board
    23.   Do Cool Things to Altoids Tins
    24.   Download a Video from YouTube
    25.   Download Wikipedia
    26.   Execute a Shell Script
    27.   Find a Users IP Address on AIM
    28.   Find a Website IP Address Without Web/CommandPrompt Access
    29.   Flash System BIOS
    30.   Hack a Pop Machine
    31.   Hack a USB Drive Startup File
    32.   Hide a File Behind a JPEG
    33.   Homebrew Hack Game Systems
    34.   Increase Wi-Fi Range
    35.   Install a Content Management System for a Website
    36.   Irrecoverably Protect Data
    37.   Jailbreak an iPhone
    38.   Know the Meaning of Technical Acronyms
    39.   Know Who Mulder and Scully Are
    40.   Learn and Write Javascript
    41.   Learn At Least One Fictional Language
    42.   Learn Hexadecimal and Binary Number Systems
    43.   Learn How to Convert a DVD to x264 (or XviD or DivX)
    44.   Learn How to Hot Wire a Car
    45.   Learn How to Install Mac OS X on a PC
    46.   Learn How to Reset RAM
    47.   Learn Important Keyboard Shortcuts
    48.   Learn the Fastest way to Kill a Computer
    49.   Learn to Identify Keyloggers
    50.   Learn to Identify Major Constellations
    51.   Load Rockbox onto an MP3 Player
    52.   Lock Your Computer with a USB Drive
    53.   Make a Cat5 Patch and Crossover Cable
    54.   Make a Laptop Cooling Pad
    55.   Make Your Office Ergonomic
    56.   Mod a Flash Drive Case
    57.   Monitor Network Traffic
    58.   Mount and ISO in a Virtual DVD Drive
    59.   Move Completely To Open Source
    60.   Permanently Delete Data on a Hard Drive
    61.   Permanently Delete Your Facebook Account
    62.   Pick a Lock
    63.   Play a Geek Practical Joke
    64.   Play Retro Games without Retro Consoles
    65.   Put LEDs Inside a Light Bulb
    66.   Put Open Source Firmware on a Router
    67.   Read 1337 At Normal Speed
    68.   Recover Deleted Files
    69.   Recover Master Boot Record
    70.   Register Your Name as an Internet Domain
    71.   Remotely Control a Computer
    72.   Replace a Laptop Keyboard
    73.   Replacing a Laptop LCD
    74.   Retrieve Data off Hard Drive
    75.   Rip Streaming Videos
    76.   Run an Operating System from a USB Thumb Drive
    77.   Run Multiple Computers with one Keyboard and Mouse
    78.   Run Operating System inside a Virtual Computer
    79.   Run Your Own Ethernet Line
    80.   Screw with Wi-Fi Leeches
    81.   Setup a Computer in the Cloud
    82.   Setup a Streaming Media Server
    83.   Setup a VPN
    84.   Setup an Apache, MySQL, Mail, PHP server on Windows and Linux
    85.   Shrink a Website URL
    86.   Soldering Glasses Together
    87.   Strip Windows DRM
    88.   Surf the Web Anonymously
    89.   Survive in a Linux Argument
    90.   Tethering a Smartphone
    91.   Turn a Laptop into a Digital Picture Frame
    92.   Turn Webcams into Security Cameras
    93.   Unbrick a Smartphone
    94.   Understand What “There’s no Place Like 127.0.0.1″ Means
    95.   Unleash a Laser Pointer’s full potential
    96.   Unlock an iPhone
    97.   Upload a Video to YouTube
    98.   Use a Camera in Manual Mode
    99.   Use Bittorrent Effectively
    100.   Wire a Home Theatre System

0 Situations - Escape the Fate

Situations are irrelevant now
She loves the way that I tease
I love the way that she breathes

I touched her (ooh)
She touched my (ahhh)
It was the craziest thing.

I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh
She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night

She can't behave and I'm just a slave
Don't worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion.

The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put in my lap
"It's way too full", she said. once you have me you'll always come back.

She can't behave and I'm just a slave
Don't worry, I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling, what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion.

I know you love to insist and all it takes is a kiss and you just
Love to hate me.

You know you love all the lies so don't act surprised that I just
Love to hate you.

I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing
I love the girls who love to hate. (Breathing)

(Whoa) Darling, what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your latest fashion

Darling (Leave Me), what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me (Darling), go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
Dying is your favorite passion

0 Tomato Ketchup

Well, there goes the times when you think you were reborn but you're not because you think your a different person when you're with that special someone or even if you're only thinking of that person.

And all your internal organ goes "la la la la la la la la la la la..." In translation with that it goes "I love you, love you, love you.. love you... love you" and the rest, echo goes with it like a hundred times or maybe I lost count when I'm sleeping, maybe it's more than just a hundred :>

And the worst kind of it is, you lost control when you've been recklessly under the spell of your organs and you smiled. Yes you smiled. I smiled. And I keep feeling that certain moment, those sweet thoughts, a sudden gush of gastric juices. You feel it rushing and it makes you smile, that you can't stop smiling, you look like you've just swallowed ecstasy, and you know you've been experiencing the best feeling that you've felt before and its refreshing.

I'm in love.

Note:
If you're interested to see my special someone
you can see her in the slide show ♥♥♥
~ littlecut